Strength 2.0

As dramatic as this post sounds, it really is not. Each one of us has met with depression, failure and heartbreak. So this post, is dedicated to all of us, for staying strong, changing, facing our fears, failures and pain, and emerging victorious.

To have loved the way she did

And to have lost it all

For she took that leap of faith, and bore the fall

And she fell

Into that bottomless crevasse

It loomed darker than ever 

She struggled, she couldn't breathe

And then, the pain that had enveloped her

Became her strength

The fire that had charred her heart

Caressed her feet playfully

She was golden, she was steel

She was all the colours of the wind

The eye of a raging storm

A lake of calm

A brutal war

She was everything and nothing

A whirlwind of excitement, sanity and madness

Emboldened, she rose 

To find strength, in her shackles, in the fire, in the fall

In pain she found strength

In strength, she found freedom, she found herself 

Of Perfect & Imperfect Little Boxes - An extension of Colours

Why is it that we strive so hard to box and pack things, to be stacked into black and white boxes?Why does the lack of conformity feel like an existential crisis?

Every emotion one feels, is represented by colour. A lot of them, are a blur of colour, are entities with ragged ends, jutting out, overflowing or not quite filling the boxes, or the black and white.  

So, has the fear of involvement and vulnerability taken over so thoroughly, that we cease to exist beyond that feeble caricature of black and white emotions, our real selves?

We are more than the neat little boxes, so why not live like the we are? We are meant to jump, walk, skip, fall, stumble, pick ourselves up and dance upon the perfect, imperfect, open, unopened, tainted, even the most un-boxlike of boxes. What we need, is the idea of conformity, the boundaries to understand what we are capable of, that we fit in, and we stand out. 

The boxes are not to imprison us, they are to show us how truly spectacular we are, and that we make miracles happen, we weave magic.

The Wanderer

Joy, excitement brimming over
I am red
Sunkissed, I am golden
Wandering, one with nature
I am green, earthen
Lost, vanishing, blending in the milieu
I am the wind
Unaware of what awaits, ignorant
I am white
Jaded, shocked, upset
I am black
Soaking in, feeling, getting lost, finding myself
A realistic dreamer on the move
A slave of the wanderlust
I am, a wanderer

Musings Of A Wistful Wanderer

So, I am going on a holiday in two weeks' time, and I am excited. The excitement however, is quite latent, and this, almost beats the purpose of this trip. I definitely want to travel and see new places, what I want additionally, is that delirious excitement one feels at the onset of something new.

I assumed I would feel it, that I am almost obligated to feel so. This trip is a fair number of firsts for me, first holiday overseas by myself, first long holiday post college with a friend, the first holiday I have planned and paid for myself... And yet, the giddiness refuses to envelope me! The rational explanation - not the first time I am travelling alone, or with friends, not my first overseas trip ever, not the first time I am taking care of myself.

There is one thing though, that I am counting upon, the beginning of the journey - the Bus terminal, the airport, the railway station. I believe, I will, like always, find that excitement and exhilaration that accompanies the take off, the first chug or the bus exiting the terminal, that feeling which sets something off in the center of ones' being, is almost addictive.

So here I am, waiting for that one emotion that I have been chasing, of excitement that freezes and thaws my insides at the same time, gives me goosebumps, adds that skip to my feet and twinkle in my eye.
here I am, wistfully painting pictures, dreams. Here I am, wistfully wandering.

(Written on 18th June,2014)